Monday, November 15, 2004

Wedding Day

Loud noise in my head...almost indescribable
the sound of screaming emptiness.
Like white Noise only heavier.
Gray and white prickly static
I don't feel anything real.
Nothing feels natural. Nothing sounds right.
I feel frozen in place unable to conceive a thought
a smile, a tear.
The pause button has been pressed.
I search in slow motion.
Taking in every detail, every meaningless object.
No thought, no description matches this place around me.
Detached and empty I sit
like a porky pine, unable to be touched,
calmed or made to feel safe.
I sit and wait for it to go away
only to feel it consume me.
Awakened by the loudness caused by
unavoidable closure
an end
to your new beginning.